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I realised that 2014 resolutions are not on this blog!!! Ahhhhh
1. NEATER AND CLEANER
neater notes for school and cleaner bedroom
2. Stop getting involved in bitching and gossiping
3. Be as friendly as you can
4. Smile more, frown less
5. Dont let ANYTHING ruin you
A. Get a psychologist
B. Start swimming more often
C. Achieve at least 3 things this year
D. Become a prefect
E. Be more adventurous and brave
—–join the school musical
—–join school sports day
Well at least try!
So these are the results:
For 1 AHAHAHAHAHAH NEVER EVEN HAPPENED
For 2 the beginning of the year was a tiny bit better but then i just had to go back to the old times-> gossiping
For 3 this worked for a lil bit!! I was nice and kind, no bad thoughts….then went back to normal ahh
For 4 nah
For 5 yes this worked! Like miraculously! Its a secret though 😮
A. I didnt need to get one because i found my stress and anxiety relieving methods. Yoga and singing!
B. Didnt work AT ALL- i never ever go swimming haha
C. Hmmm lemme think
1. I got first this year with excellent results!
2. I managed to get great marks for both my piano and violin exam which was on the same day even though i struggled with both instruments
3. ……… I went to bali this year?? I havent went travelling in the longest time, besides visiting korea my home country and stopping by at kl to shop
So there goes three achievements i guess?
D. Heck yeah i even got it in the beginning of the year which was unexpected because usually prefects are picked during the end of the year
E. School musical yess! And i got a sort of main role and definitely i got the most interesting role of the whole play!!! Even better than the very main characters lol. I didnt get interviewed unlike the main character and only had one scene that was fully dedicated to me…but my role lit up the boring play and yeah. I had to act like a crazyyyy old man obsessed with cheese but yeah haha great times. AMAZING experiences too!
School sports day…no i didnt get it. I got last when i auditioned for it! Ahh it was super embarrassing to be the only runner on the track while everyone has reaches the finish line and are drinking water. I guess sports isnt my thing… I really hoped that it would be tho. I was super super sad about it. Most probably i wouldnt audition for it again next year even though its my last year……. Because of the MAJOR humiliation i got but im still sad. How great would it feel to have that adrenaline to run really well?!! Im a long distance runner btw! If you even consider me a runner… Haha
*i tried!!! For E. Which is great. So a F for my terrible tortoise speed running, zero for high jump because i dont even dare to take a leap no matter how low the bar is😂, super fail for long jump because i was one of the lowest scorers for long jump while all of my friends got great results for long jump, zero for javelin or shotput because if you see how weak my arms are you’ll know haha!
So yeapp this was the oh so boring story! Bye xxx
Soo i made 5 resolutions for 2014 and (what a surprise) it didnt really happen at all! The last one did work though!! Thats a real surprise… Considering how hard the last one is. You can scroll down to find my 2014 resolutions if you guys wanna know!
1. Be more confident
2. Be kind.
3. Swear less.
4. Your attitude is life.
1a-> too many times i have been so scared to things…just because im not comfortable. Of course its easier to do things that you’re comfortable with and that you enjoy, but what about the billion things that you’re not comfortable doing? You’re gonna miss out so much in the world if you keep doing things that are in your tiny comfort zone. Get out there and hustle baby!
B-> i met this girl at RYLA, she wasnt in my group so i barely knew her name and stuff but all i knew was that she looked very tomboyish and yeah… Until i saw her talk in front of the audience. She had confidence oozing out of her and when she spoke it was like she was talking to every single person in the audience as if she was your friend. And this amazed me because she does not look like that at all! It was such a surprise. Because of such qualities that really shone through her and definitely shocked me, i confronted her after the camp and i asked her, ‘where on earth do you get such confidence????’ And what she did was (another super cool confident move) she didnt act modest or anything, she just got riht on the topic and talked and talked about her journey as if we were super close friends. She told me how she used to stutter and all that when she had to talk in front of people. She was such a shy girl until TOASTMASTERS. It had changed her life and made her so amazing like she is now. This really inspired me so much. I wanna be like her!!! I wanna be able to speak to a million people with confidence and ease. Thinking about it….maybe i should join toastmasters! Teehee 🙂
2 -> i have to tell you i am not the nicest person hahahah im really negative for a normal person and i bitch non stop. I can rant and rant all day about tiny little things if i get into that snappy mood. And this is obviously ‘comfortable’ for me to do and sometimes fun (ahh im ashamed) but its unhealthy. Its so unhealthy that i influence people with my negativity and trigger other people’s minds to think such mean thoughts and add to the rant. Its so important to be kind because it spreads positivity and happiness to so many people. It gives good vibes to people and everything’s nice. They say that kindness is free…but to me its not free. Its one of the hardest things to do and it sort of pains me to keep being kind and not think about bad thoughts. It requires hard work and ‘sacrifice’ (omg im just getting weirder with my nonsensical blabber but yeah just pull thru with me!) which is why there are more reasons to make this a resolution for 2015. A new beginning. A fresh start. I cant change the past but i can always choose and make my future by altering me to become a better person. Someone that i love and someone that i am comfortable with. Someone who spreads goodness instead of evil. I will be that!
3-> I guess around late nov to early december i have started swearing a lot! The number of times i swear have been increasing RAPIDLY! And this bad habit has GOT to stop. I cant let it continue for 2015 and suck my life anymore. This is definitely one of the hardest but i need to do this. Whats really bad about this habit is that i influenced my sister so shes swearing nonstop too. GAHHH WHY?!! I feel terrible for bringing her into this mess. Im gonna stop it!!
4 lastly is like a reminder for me. Attitude is the most important. Its more important than success, relationships, wealth, etc. Success is nice but attitude is the one that defines you. Not your social status or what other people think of you. Attitude is how you treat people. This is really important because this is what leads you to the real success. Happiness. Kindness. Care. The best thing about attitude is that u have the incredible ability to change it the way you want! Take advantage of that and make sure no one influences and dominates you to make an attitude a certain way. This is your thing. Even if you do everything wrong. This has got to be right.
Phew ok done with the long paras. Enjoy reading and i wanna know your new years resolutions!!!
Its almost been one month since i’ve written. Which means i was wayy too distracted. I may be inactive sometimes…or all the times haha but i swear i wont forget about this and i will write no matter what. Whether it’s two years later or 5 years later. I will write! Its good for me and its a nice healthy way to reflect and see how you’ve grown over the months.
Talking about growing, it’s so so close to Christmas! And sure thats exciting – to most people…but to me it just means holidays are almost over and schools gonna start! 😭😭😭😭 noooooooooooooo i hate school.
I dread going to school, and it hasnt even started yet!! I honestly dont miss my friends like at all and i like the free life ❤️ this is not offensive at all hahah its just therapeutic and really refreshing sometimes to just be alone, meet new people, do something which you enjoy that maybe your friends dont like doing. Its really nice to hang out with the closest friends, i know that because i do that a lot!! (All the inside jokes and laughing at the STUPIDEST things only your friends can understand) butttttt its nice to take a break and really understand yourself again. It may be confusing to some people i know!! I totally understand. But yeah. You’ll only know if you experience it yourself. Get out more. Meet new people. Read more books. Listen to another genre of music. Do stuff!
Whoo that was looong and im glad i got that off my chest! I want to give a little shoutout to RYLA camp 2014 because of how it ‘kinda’ changed my life! It was such a refreshing and different experience for me. And btw RYLA this year was held in Kuching and it was the biggest ever. And THANK GOD i registered for it. I didnt expect RYLA to be like this. It was holy h0ly hOLY amazing haha! The camp itself was the most boring-like srsly boring…but the people and the souls they have was incredible! I’ve never met such a bunch! I knew nobody when i went, except for a friend who ended up in a different group so it kinda means i was alone. Ahh it was so so amazing. I want to go again!!!! But i have a feeling i cant because of school but who knows, if timings all right i will go heck yeah!
Okkkk enough of RYLA hahah that was a lot of ‘holy, amazing!!!, ahhh, !!!!?!!&)@/@!;&, and etc’
Did i tell you my new years resolutions for 2015?! Oh wait i guess i will make another post totally dedicated to it tee hee!
P.s. I’ll tell you my piano and violin exam results in a while! xx
Update* -> piano grade8 and violin grade4 exam both held on 5th December 2014 results came out a little more than a week later: MERIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TIME TO CELEBRATE GAHHHHHHHHH THANK U THANK U UNIVERSE AND MY TEACHER MR LO 💗 i was close to distinction for piano which would have been amazing but wtvs im a happy gal!